I've had allot on my plate this week and as a result...allot on my mind. So here's a random blog that's basically a thought turned into a awkwardly long paragraph.
I apologize in advance if it doesn't really make any sense:)
I wonder sometimes why my friends can't see what I see. Why they don't think they deserve the absolute best...from life, love, just everything. I hate that they settle. I HATE it. Sometimes I just want to leave where I am and go to them...maybe shake some sense into them. I guess I have this deep need to try and help people. But what if they don't want my help? What if they are exactly where they want to be? It doesn't matter how much you tell them what they are capable of, how beautiful they are, how much more they deserve out of life...they have to make their own decisions. I know this. But it doesn't make me any less crazy. My heart just aches for people that I care about. I don't always think I say the right thing either so it just makes me feel worse. Sometimes I feel SOOOO much that I end up being terrible at expressing it out loud. For someone that "feels" so much I end up coming off as pretty cut and dry. Oh well. I just pray that some of the things I say help in some way. I just can't help but be honest about what I think. Although I am quick to admit that I can be wrong. It still doesn't change the fact that I say it out loud most times:) I know it will all work out though, it always does. Even though sometimes what I say drives my friends crazy....they know how I am and for some strange reason still call me when they need me.Maybe what we need hear isn't what we always want to hear... I guess that's what friendship has to be, or else we're all just pretending to be something that we're not.
I'd rather be who I really am and annoy the people I love then try to please everyone and lose who I am.
